читать дальшесегодня втыкаю пробку в пасть своего демона - себя грызения и упрекания. с меня хватит. гуляй товарищ! а то ты меня уже заел до потери рассудка.. а мне он еще нужен!

и ты дева тоже гуляй от меня подальше.

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читать дальшеDamn! those nightmares are going to kick the last bits of my excitement in the exploration and traveling..



What do you think Robi? Arent they? why you are grinning silly cat? you
think i am masohistic obsessive human being and those high powered guys
gave me some magical powers just by accident? hah they must be enjoying
this melodramatic comady of my life X) must be definitely..







So what did Osh tell us.. search the.. or.. ah my head is such a garbage pile!


Oook i must seek the turtle spirits.. not enough for one ghost lol! i
need to find four of them! and try to defite them! at least challenge
them.. and probably they will share their highest knowledge with my
miserable person!



oh yeah! Osh said he will feel changes in myself.. seems its not
enough.. i am changing as a waterflow! i must have some hysteria.. today
i am wise old women sharing her wisdom by the candle ligth.. next day i
am offspring with a crazy and sure stupid idea crossing the Norrath to
see the springtime in the Kelethin.. or dancing with the gnolls by the
fireplace.. eating with orcs.. or sticking tongue of my mouth in front
of the pure evil creature of our guild the huge ogre Gman X) but i
believe he has a great heart..(oh those are memories of BB EA guild :P)
so my crazy nature is not enough for Osh.. i must change haha.. yeah..



Ocadia do you listen me? hmm what did you ate my brave horsey? you
smell.. hmm very strange? i am talkative today hah.. long road ahead
ghosts.. mysteries.. more nightmares.. what a life! amazing! definitely






_______



So few days.. maybe a week passed by searching and talking.. hah the
last one - huge knower of the turtle life .. somekind of brother ratonga
was dragging his wise life in the deepest sewers of the freeport.. in
the romantic place called Edgewater Drains! Brother Lasca floating in
the water surrounded by the turtle babies.. and what i suppose to learn
from him?! what!? wich new way of life? should i dig down under the
ground of the Hole tunnels.. ?! stay there in the dark.. like those
stinky roeclicks.. or how they are called.. untill i see the light of my
wiseness! ah mee the mind brightening hour.. no.. really those wise men
are silly.. or sick really.. but yeah i must admit they ARE wise.. in
the final ..

__



well.. well.. well.. so the air ghost! why does she live under the water
then? ill better leave this place.. i am not a turtlekind.. what i can
learn here? to be a ghost? to glow? X) ill return to the books.. to the
wise books in the library.. yeah they teach me such a crutial things!
mmm i still feel the taste of the last novel i have read there.. mmm







wait! she glows?! glows in the dark?! oh and so my wise ratonga brother
ninja.. ninja turtle
master! hah.. how should i challenge a ghost.. why should i fight it?!
oh il better keep my spell book closer.. what was that spell.. snare..
then.. my wolf pack brothers spell.. then the..



- Speak. child! I know why you are here.







- lighting.. ugh.. oww.. err you are so alight.. well.. Mam.. madam..
hmm. or Sir Nimbus.. could we talk a little?.. i am sent by the
Lodizal.. eerrr.. chalenge?! hmm you know? can we just speak?







- perseverance my child. i see how bright mind you have. you already
know it.. by your nature.. but.. not only in the light and enjoyable
things.. in the real things.. and you know what i mean.. you have to
cross that line and close the door.. once you have started something big
and serious you must keep your going.. do not look around just keep
going to your goal, step by step, brick by brick, to the goal..



How could she? how could she know my huge problems with my self?!

Did i see the smile? did the turtles smile at all? can they? what does she mean!



Goodbye my child! You must think!



well i knew it. the wise creatures always give a puzzles.. where should i use that.. i cant change my self in the one second..







i see you met the air elder, Enifer. the first rule in everything is
that to be constant and keep your going towards your goal. you will
need this knowledge in the whole journey in the whole preparation.. to
be called the one, the chosen by the Lodizal. let your Ocadia lead you
to the Trembling Lagoon in Feerot.. there you will find Delmar, old
water spirit.







The Lagoon?! Where in that allround greenish swapmy place is Lagoon?! grr!

yeah he faded.. so wise of you Lasca..



To the Feerot then..





Why i am so not in the right mood? i dont know.. maybe that sitting in
the library.. maybe something else.. maybe you guys drive me crazy?
Ocadia.. i am kidding right? can i be ironic and pissed off.. once in
my life.. i see that i am on the somekind of highest meaning trip.. but
i feel my self like i am going somewhere i dont know to find something i
dont know what.. or maybe i have such wrong mood today.. yeah.. i
probably must sew my mouth off? for today.











mmmm i got to look before i go somewhere.. folow someones will..

la la laaaaa.



Situation's all critical

You've got to look first before you go

If you wasn't too sure then now you know

The situation is all critical



Wait OK you've got to look before you go

Wait OK you've got to look before you go



Deep into the darkness where I hide

The monsters all dig down deep inside

You never know when they're satisfied

Buried down deep where the sun don't shine

The monsters are buried down deep inside



Wait OK you've got to look before you go

You're wasting away.. (c)



la la la... mmmm...







ha ha ok shooting up sorry for your ears guys.. oh girls

ok here? Ocadia are you sure i must touch this? and you are staying
here? ok.. see ya then horsie.. i hope ill return my back safe..



well..







damn hate that running.. or not.. i envy those pixie like.. they fly so
easilly.. no running actually helps.. to clear my mind.. and somethimes
maybe run from the thoughts.. maybe even from my heart.. hurting.. i
wander.. if ill ever stop.. i always wander.. will i wander all of my
life? where is my place here? will i find the peace.. will i cut out
that from my self.. i know.. i know what is white and know what is
black.. but cant stop blending them together..







here he is.. another glowing mighty creature.. does he ever feel alone? there are no one soul around?

Delmar the water spirit.. yeah.. hes in the right place..





but.. where is my place here?.. i am lost.. how i am lost..i have lost
my self again.. and i am no where to be found.. i want it better but all
my attempts are such a pitty oozish body moves.. i am sick.

what if i..

ahh heya old thought.. i see you keep trying.. yeah i agree this is nice
place quiet and no Ocadia around to stop me and kick out you from my
head..





-can you ever stop that suicidal masohistic crap?! Enifer!! ill tell
every one though to Ocadia! and i bet shell give you her clear opinion
on that!







-oh! you.. i thought of nothing actually just novels in my head spinning you know? ^_^

-you are saying it to me? i see you through!

- i am sorry. probably i am just tired. dont take it serious ^_^ and Ocadia mustnot know all my PMS like moods

-well.. we will talk about it.. later.. but now here comes the Nibus! and i bet he has a right thing to you..

-...





- what a mood we have here?! excellent! i feel that seeds of this challenge found their place in your heart Enifer.

-you have no idea Lasca.







- so Nimbus shared he`s vision of the resilience and you are now in the deep thinking

-yeah.. be positive.. trust.. believe.. never loose that whoyou truly are..







- I know sometimes it's hard for you to see, You're caught between just who you are and who you wanna be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend.. Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end (c)

This is your life; you made it this far Enifer.. you ve made it..

...

..i ve made it and i must move on.. move on.. move on to the better life.. be better for my self sake. damn







The next one is the earth spirit.. elder.. wiser..stronger.. fighter..
with own legends.. idont remember them.. but i feel deep adoration..
Festus.. the air spirit! if i had to chose one more time. i would chose
to be a palladin.. to be a fighter! and ill face all those miserables
not by the spells.. ill face them with my sword.. and those sounds
around would nt be spell wisperings from my mouth.. they would be the
clear sound of steel singing in the fight!



but i could only dream about it..







now to the misty Hidden grotto!!







What did i ask? is that hidden grotto place is forbiden knowledge?







We must rest Robi.. i cant just run through my beloved Faydark without a minute of silence.. and admiration.. such a nature!

Hey Robi! dont! ugh.. you could find the better place to those ladies things!







- so noone knows about any grottos around? is it the same as fay grotto?

-you mean enchanted mushroom ring? i bet it is not.. actually if you
will head a bit farter ahead - you will meat pixie drakes..?.. maybe
they will give you a hint? i wish you good luck! but i really havent
heard anything about place you are looking for..







- head right to the pixies! maybe they will tell you! if they will have a right mood!! /grin

-yeah sure.. im starting to get used to head to someone.. just to find out someone else to head to.. ugh. thank you!







...



-Enifer. we are delighted to meet you again. we owe you a lot for
your services. but this is not the thing we have rights to share. even
with our best solider like you.







- we are really sorry. but you must leave us. this particular question has no answers.







- you will find the answer by yourself. you know it. i only see you
are extreemly tired.. head to the closest camp near the mountains right
behind you. you need some rest for your mind.



- thank you.... and maybe see you.







ihave found the camp. i knew that place. where different stranges meet
each other.. where legends are shared by the fireplace.. some of them
are just a silly farytales.. some of them are truth.. somethimes
terrifying one.. we live in such a mixing bowl.. where good and bad
floats side by side in the one mass.. even best of the good.. and worst
of the bad.. ones..



hmmmm have they something to eat here?







ugh! ears!? preserved eyes! fingers in the sauce! bone powder.. eeek..
well.. seems i am not in the right grocery.. how someone can eat
something like that..







- keep your hands away from the reagents for the **** sake!







-well i am sorry one more time i must realise that its magic things
^_^..so as you said - i can have a coach for this one night? should ill
pay in advance?







Robi.. for tonight we will stay here.. such a nice place.. expensive
though.. but it is something better than grass and leaves under my
butt..it deserves a comfort somethimes ^_^







That was lovely morning!...



-nom nom noooom!! what a tasty **** arrived!

-hey behave yourself!!

-ha ha ha! such a brave lovely red head! i wish i could test your skills tonight!

-ill prove you some of my skills right now! i bet all what you will wish for tonight is just stay alive!!

-ha ha ha! easy easy! you humans do not understand compliments at all!

-****** ...O.o...







Robi.. that is a week already.. and nothing for today.. noone know.. noone have heard..







heeey there! such a silky nose.. hey guy! easy... i am here just to
admire you.. what a horsey man.. strong and beautiful ^_^ mmm







I hope you will get some nutrition from this crap Ocadia.. i wish i
could get something better for you.. but seems they are totally ran out
of yoursort of grains.. i am sorry mylady..



oh man! Ocadia look ahead!!











horseMan.. damn.. ha ha i am sick goose! wow look at his.. eerrr... body?! oh how hes mooving!!

why hes looking at me! such a fire in the eyes! he walks to me!! oooooh it is getting hot in here,...i am going blind yeah!







Everybody’s got an animal inside.

No one has ever been so civilized.

Animal attraction is everything there is.

Love is just a feelin’ that we missed.(c)



oh i am a part of the jungle i wish i could forget the rules... spinning head.. my brain is missing..



**** ouch Robi! did you just bite me?! dont be silly he is the... oh
only steaming.. tight.. great torso horseMan... i wish i could be the
hottest horseGirl right now.. oh seems i forget how they are called..
oops!



- Greetings Maam. Your name is Enifer?



ugh what a powerful voice.. i am shaking..



-yes. how?..err how can i help you?







So.. where i am..? ahh yeah.. so.. horse people have heard rumours about
me being in the camp.. drake flyers told them about me and my
destination... and their shaman saw the vision of my way.. of its
outcome.. sure as all wise ones .. noone shared an answer to my
questions.. but i am thankfull anyway.. so seems i am on the right way..
that is one.. and the second they gave me directions to the earth
spirit.. that is the main at the moment actually..



so here i am.. in the hidden grotto..







and here he is.. Festus.. the spirit of the greatest warior..



-DEFEAT ME! OR DIE!







- Festus!!?? I..!?







- FIGHT RIGHT NOW!







- GOOD GIRL!

- What power! I can see you have met my fellows! I am the one chosen to embody steadfastness above all else.


You must learn to hold, to hold in the face of danger! Hold when
everyone else abandons their posts! Hold where is no hope left! Hold
when there is no hope left! That the way of the chosen ones!







- Arent you shaking Enifer? ))) i knew you will do it now..
hurry.. look at the obelisks in the Twin Tears.. they will lead you
further!







Sinking sands?! whatever.. i wanted to visit that land anyway...







mmmmm that hot.. strange air around.. its pleasure to wind like that all the way on the carpet!!!











mysterious land in the sands.. with more mysterious oasiss.. and usually
dead ones.. with ghouls and barkers.. and such like creatures.. but
there could be very nice rest place.. a camp.. heh







so.. what we have.. head where you dont know.. take what you cant
imagine.. got there where someone probably will kick you in your
restless backside >.<







in the early morning.. in the very heart of the crying brothers.. the
fire spirit reach te ground.. and leave the stone.. screature carved
from the stone.. do not touch it.. do not pass it by.. you will loose
your self and so the world will loose you.. something like that.. in the
middle of twin tears.. hmm







so.. lets wait for the morning.. and then the world will loose us..^_^ Robi say bye bye to your nasty tail











havent we seen such stone turtles before? hehe







Neci.. where are you the spirit of fire?







...that will be end.. you cant doit! the darkness.. that is the wrong path! wrong place!! that ledads to NOTHING!

NOTHING! NOTHING!









SO MEANT TO BE!!





ROBI! I CANT!! I SAW IT THE DREAM!







-FIGHT THE YOUNG ONE! FIGHT IT!

-NIPIK?!

- SHARE YOUR WISDOM!

-WILLFULNESS! A WILL TO LIVE!







- you have gone on a great journey Enifer, but it is far from over. i am
proud of you. As i knew Lodizal always had the right feeling of chosen
ones..







- Enifer.. Above all else, do what you believe is right. You have the right
feeling of right things in you. Do not let anyone stand on your way.
Especially yourself, disbelief.. and lazyness or fear. Do not
compromise your values... This is what you must do, if you are become
the chosen one!!



- You must rest.. and meet the Osh one more time. He will give you the
next directions. It was pleasure and honour to meet you Enifer!







I have found the way of the turtle. Osh can keep his thoughts to him.. i already feel that i am different inside..

The principles.. perseverance, resilience, steadfastness.. and wilfulness.



Lodizal is accepted me to her chosen ones..i feel that somehow. now.. i
must face my nightmares.. but i wont be on my own! i will be with my
friends! with chosen ones!







but...



The riot inside keeps trying to visit me... Heart beat, a heart beat, I need a heart beat.. (c)







Tell me would you kill to save your life?

Tell me would you kill to prove you're right?

Crash, crash, burn let it all burn

This hurricane's chasing us all underground



No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget

No matter how many lies that I live, I will never regret

There is a fire inside that has started a riot about to explode into flames..(c)

@темы: eq2, screenshots, a bit lower quality

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days passed slowly.. like sand grains in the sand grain clock in the
slow motion.. i have lost count of the days.. how long i am here? how
long i am lost here between books.. ancient folios.. scrolls.. the smell
of the ancient pages.. that's all what i have breathed..



I have slept in the library again.. this was barely dream.. yesterday i
got some bad news.. or maybe good.. Nipik.. old old Nipik.. has passed
away.. all of the othmir village is in the big grave.. so i am.. i hoped
i will meet him in my dream world.. but.. this dream..



i was looking.. desperately looking for something..







and couldnt find.. but i felt.. there is something..







i saw the magic creature.. or maybe i saw someones soul.. or.. i dont remember..ugh..







but i feel strong feeling.. it is something about Nipik.. something connected with him.. or.. i must hurry!!

@темы: eq2, screenshots

с Днем Святого Валентина!
Совсем не важно, нашли ли Вы того единственного любимого человека, или еще нет, главное - чтобы в сердцах жила любовь, и тогда мир станет чуточку лучше
Всем хорошего и влюбленного настроения в этот чудесный день!)


Untitled by Enifer ♥, on Flickr

@темы: (c)